Oh my! I suppose it is time to update this blog. I was hoping to have it integrated into a new site, but I have decided to keep this separate. Although I am pretty public with my role as a mom, I need to keep it somewhat separate from other parts of my life online. There are so many things I could tell you. But honestly, Facebook has most of it. What prompted this post today is an upcoming anniversary that I consider the most important day of my life. More of that in a bit. But first…
Cristian is doing well. You know…his pediatrician was concerned that he might have autism. I was supposed to get him checked. His doctor did say to watch him and see if our concerns improved. They have quite a bit, which is a huge relief. I didn’t get him checked. I still may…but not now. The self-imposed deadline for this decision is his third birthday. He is becoming more social. He says hello and waves to people on our walks in the park. Although he’s a bit shy at first around other kids, he’s doing well in school. He’s starting to speak more. He knows his ABCs. He’s a bit slower with development, but he’s making strides. This hard for me as a mom because everything in my life happens so quickly. Cristian is my lesson in patience. I’m very proud of the little boy he’s becoming. He’s smart. Little critter can take stuff apart and put it back together. He cleans with mommy and feeds the puppy without me asking. He takes initiative and is very, very loving. The fact that today is Father’s Day hasn’t left me. I did think about his dad. It’s a shame that he has chosen not to be part of his life. But because of the man he is, sadly, I think it’s probably for the best. Cristian does not need that level of constant disappointment. I’m happy being both mom and dad.
My life as a woman has changed. I made the decision to stop going to school for my PhD. That decision was incredibly difficult. There were ethical issues that started me on that journey. There was a sense of resentment in the process because I felt like school was taking away from me being a mom and my career. I lost a part of myself and although I may seem chipper and normal. I was not happy with what I wasn’t showing the outside world. I feel a sense of relief. I don’t have that external worry of how I’m going to study. That worry clouded moments with Cristian. My personal life is changing. I’m not ready to talk about the details of that quite yet. But I’m in a good place. I’m excited about the journey. So far it has been crazy wonderful.
All of this wouldn’t have been possible if June 26, 2009 never happened. Little did I know that following June 26ths would be life-changing, amazing days. No joke. This day is significant just about every year. I don’t think I’ve talked about it on this blog. June 26th, ladies and gentlemen, is my #FreedomDay. It started off with my divorce finalized on that day in 2009. That life moment catapulted me into the woman I needed to become…the woman that I was always supposed to be, but lost because I made a decision to get married so young. I don’t regret that decision. I fell in love with my first husband. It was a great story, with a not so sad ending. We both are happier now. A year later, I walked across a stage for my MBA. I will never, ever, ever forget that moment. Then I had bout with cancer and on that day in 2011, it was gone. 2012 was a quiet year except that a few weeks later I got pregnant. Last year was quiet too. I was dating someone then. But this year…this year is different. My heart is smiling. I’m hopeful. Other than spending the morning in the salon, I’m not ready to talk about my plans for the rest of the day. But know that it will be yet another new beginning and it is an amazing story. You all have no idea how much I’m smiling right now. Like with any big day, I will spend some time reflecting and counting my blessings. There is this precious angel of a child who reminds me every minute of why I’m thankful for my first #freedomday.